This writing is nothing but also everything at the same time. Nothing that I can fully express but everything that the world has to offer.
The rain slowly walked away and let the sun have his time.
Oh God, I fucking miss the sun.
I miss him and all his antics. His jealousy towards my happiness.
Do we really need the sun? Or do we just need the warmth and light in this cold floating rock in the dark space?
The children are playing in the grass field. Holding sticks and stones while playing “Cain and Able”. Saying, “I’m gonna hurt you if you don’t give me what I want!”. Ah, the beauty and tragedy of human aggression.
Then The War happened. The War on foreign land, The War inside the head. From throwing fists, stones, arrows, bullets, and rockets.
In a time where nuclear threat reigns free, are bullets still relevant? In a world where branding is the most important, does pain still matter?
The first sin human has ever done wasn’t done by Eve, or even Cain, it’s Adam. The first sin of humanity is existing, and the second sin is evolving. Violating the law of animals, being on top of the food chain and messing with the world as they wish. With their silly brain that eventually will kill them and create their own plague. The plague that would bring all of them to their own demise.
Sadness, desire, expectation, ego, abandonment, hatred.
***
The Man comes inside the room. In a room with a round table and 4 chairs, there sits one guy with flaming hair, one guy with armour, and a kid. The Man sits on the 4th chair, looking guilty.
The Flaming Hair guy said, “What a fun trip to hell, am I right?” sarcastically.
“Stop it. He clearly needs our help.” The Armour guy said.
“What’s happened?” asks The Kid.
“I almost left.” said The Man.
“To where?” asks The Kid again.
“Someplace where all of you can’t find me.” The Man answered.
The Kid clearly looks worried, but he doesn’t even know how to look worried yet.
“So you wanted to leave all of us? After you usurped me of my throne? The throne that you consciously gave me?” said The Flaming Hair guy.
“I created all of you. I’m the one that had scars all over my body, but all of you were always the ones living it.” said The Man.
“Isn’t that our main purpose in the first place?” asks The Armour guy.
“Yes, it was. I am an evil guy. I want to bring misery to everyone who deserves it, but not to you guys.” The Man answered.
“So you think by dying you can pay for all of your sins towards us? Don’t you think the pain will outlive your miserable body?” The Flaming Hair guy points his fiery finger at The Man.
“Do you really think so?” asks The Man.
“Don’t you realise that every time you went away and died temporarily, the pain was still there for us to live with? Even when you “killed” The Kid and The Armour guy, their pain is still there with me.” said The Flaming Hair guy.
“We’re never really died, anyway. We’re still here.” said The Kid.
“You can’t just leave us here after creating us and giving us your pain!” said The Flaming Hair guy as he grabs The Man’s collar.
“If you think I’m not competent enough, which I am, then kill me! Take over! That was what I want you to do in the first place, right?” taunts The Man.
“Oh, so that’s what you want, huh? Do you want death? I’ll give you death!” The Flaming Hair guy pulls out his burning sword right next to The Man’s neck. The Armour Guy steps up and stands between them, while The Kid closes his eyes.
***
Oh let the Gods paint the core of our souls with holy blood.
Oh let the Gods clean our minds with the mighty flood.
Oh let the Gods shine on the poor who are lying on the road.
Oh let the Gods give strength to those who carry their load.
***
Fly high to the seventh skies and dive right back to the ground. Grey is everything that I found.
So it’s basically nothing?
No. It’s everything.
Nothing is everything?
Yes, it was, still is, and forever will be.
How about the sound? Are there any notes, melodies, or harmonies up there?
Not quite. Not quite like the ones you can find down here.
The grass is dancing with the trees to the music of the wind. The dance to entertain the Gods, the dance to entertain the Sapiens.
The rivers are flowing to quench the thirst of human curiosity. Water to heal the pain, water to quell the anger.
Life is beautiful, isn’t it? Well, not quite. Not quite like the one you don’t have.
***
Here are the Top 5 of Adam’s sins:
Adam’s first sin was existing.
Adam’s second sin was his ignorance towards the snake.
Adam’s third sin was raising Cain.
Adam’s fourth sin was not being able to save Able.
Adam’s fifth sin was not to kill himself before it was all too late.
***
Cain walked all over the Earth not to live his punishment but to seek redemption. No one cares about his father’s sins but his own. Being the big example of humanity’s biggest sin was the only purpose he had.
Life is beautiful, isn’t it? Well, yes, compared to Cain’s.
Let us take a good look at the sky today. Is it sunny? Is it cloudy? Or is it rainy? Doesn’t really matter if you don’t have anywhere to go, does it?
All you need to do is in your own house, your dirty little house.
All you need to go is in your own head, your messy little head.
Like a cycle of rain, a mother evaporates hopes and expectations towards her child to the sky. They accumulate there until they clot into one big dark cloud of destiny. When the cloud can’t hold it anymore, it will pour the hopes back into the now-growing-up kid. Makes his clothes wet, makes his body cold and gives him a fever.
Oh it’s just a little rain, isn’t it? How bad could it be?
Oh no, it was a storm. A thunderstorm.
The lightning and thunder are running around the sky to hopefully one day can strike the kid and kill him. Leaving him scorched on the ground.
When will this end? You asked.
When does it ever end? I said.
This perpetual wheel of nothing and everything. It was made to start and never end.
I thought the human brain has evolved. Why is it so hard to understand what is it that you’re trying to say? You asked.
It’s still evolving. I’m just born too early because my parents can’t take care of their desires. I said.
It hurts my brain! You said.
What? Life? Yeah, it hurts mine too. It’s happened to everyone, nothing special. I said.
So what is it that’s special? You asked.
Nothing, but also everything. I said.
At the same time? You asked.
At the same time. I answered.
